August 17, 2010
18 1/2 inches
Some of the waiting room crowd
Last "Ellie in the Belly" photo
I was a nervous wreck in pre-op. We prayed together and I was holding it together...barely... for awhile.
My favorite boy ever and favorite girl ever
Will's first time holding Ellie
The night before her birth, he told me the first thing he wanted to do with his new baby sister was to hold her.
How I prayed he would get his wish.
Thank you, Jesus!
Will couldn't be a more precious big brother. He has the most wonderful conversations with "Caroline Ellie Ellie Grace." He introduces himself,
"It's okay, Ellie. I'm your big brother. Its okay. Don't cry (even when she is sleeping happily.)
"I love you so much!"
Tonight, as he left our room, he said to her, "It's getting dark out so you and me, Ellie, have to go night night because we're the kids."
He loves her so much.
He loves to "pet" her soft hair and kiss her.
3 generations of girls
Finally, I get to really look at my girl after she is brought out of the NICU.
(I was rolled into the NICU briefly to see and hold her previously but hadn't really gotten my hands on her good.)
Love that face
Lovie & Ellie
Honey & Ellie
First time meeting his baby sister & kissing her
Will was first to meet Ellie. He then went to the waiting room where he announced, "Hey, everybody! I'm a big brother! I have a baby sister!"
Just before the c-section began, I overheard a doctor confirming the phone number and name of our "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep" photographer was was on standby. This incredible organization provides professional photography to families who are given a terminal diagnosis for their baby.
As I overheard the conversation, I completely lost it.
The anesthesiologist didn't hear the conversation and so he assumed I was just nervous about receiving an epidural.
I explained I was terrified of losing my baby.
I have never been more relieved to hear a cry.
I know there are still so many questions. Today we got "good news" and "bad news." We are still searching for a diagnosis.
But, my girl is here and thriving right now.
I am thankful.
I know her life is not promised to me.
I have never been more aware of that than I have been during this pregnancy.
I am thankful.
Precious moment -
the first time I held my Ellie girl
Just after her birth
I am so in love